Sunday, February 27, 2011
The other day, I wrote on my BBM status "Quiet Time." I seriously meant that I had to put myself on a time-out. Didn't feel like talking, texting, tweeting, listening, hanging, nothing. I just wanted to be quiet and listen to the Divine. Lately it seems that life has been one big worldwind. There's the success of the interviews I've been doing with well-known artists; I was "recognized" in the street as Samantha Luck who does video interviews for www.jukeboxdc.com; the publishing process; being solicited to freelance; 9-5 really becoming demanding; and then throw dating, being there for friends and family, making sure I feed my face (when I stress, I don't eat), and maintaining some type of stability and peace in the mix, and it's quite the juggling act, especially when I feel like I'm in a transitional phase- having not really made a home for myself like I had planned to by now...See, that's a lot, right? Anywho, quiet time, time-out, meditation, all that has been appropriate. I just want to hear what I'm supposed to hear, go where I'm supposed to go, and do what I am supposed to do.
Sometimes you also need a minute to reevaluate, analyze moves, strategize and plan. How am I supposed to do that if I never take a time-out to just be quiet and reflect?
Plus, OMG! I'm 28- 2 years to 30 now...Geez Luise, where did time go? Gotta reassess, gotta reflect, gotta be silent.
I have to remind myself that I don't have to be "on" all the time. It's okay to take a chill pill every once in a while.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
How the novel process and my dating life continue to parallel is beyond me. As a matter of fact, it could very well be a blessing because I'm totally into both. They are both leading to a desired goal, it's fun even with its many ups and downs, and there are plenty lessons to learn.
Ahhhhh yes!! How many times have you been told "Stop putting all your eggs in one basket" if it is not official. With dating, sure you're not committed, but he's talking that good stuff, giving you the sweetest taboo. Saying all the things your poor heart wants to hear even though you never asked for that crap. You start raising him up above the others. Why? Because you already have a scewed view of him, a high regard for him that's not deserved and there could be various reasons why you'd do that. Everyone has their own preferences, reasons, logic, excuses...
But nooooo, stop, don't do it!!! You want action, remember??? Not typical smooth operator mumbo jumbo.
Similar to lit agents and publlishers. I've gotten quite a bit of interest in the book, which has excited me greatly. The use of big words like "love," "interested," and "we'll be in contact" has triggered feelings of want and a "knowing" that the dream is coming true and fast. So what did I do? I paused on exploring other options because of the sweet talk. Well, I'm not signed to any of my sweet talkers, so guess what? It's time to keep on moving. Opening that door right back up and see what else is out there that'll not just talk the talk, but walk the walk.
When you know you have a good product that will not only sell but touch lives, why would want to bury that and have the publishing process delayed by others that only see a fraction of what you see? Why would you want someone or a company to keep holding off when you know it's awesome?
Same with dating. When you know you're great and can run down the list of why and how, why let the sweet talker, smooth operator put "baby in the corner?" Just doesn't seem right at all. Too awesome for that. Take ALL EGGS OUT OF BASKET and divy them up amongst those who know the corner is not a place for you.
So yes, the big wheels have been turning. Dating with more of an open mind and heart has begun and it's been a blast. I've even learned to appreciate characteristics I would've never thought to (whole other blog). LOL!!
And my book! Yes!! It's time to get those emails, queries, letters rollin'!!
Let's work on getting something real :-)
P.S. Can you tell I've been listening to Sade a lot? lol :-) and Tina Turner...
I'll be writing another BIG LESSON I've learned for ya next week :-)
For you viewing and listening pleasure ;-)